Boundaries...

I've been thinking a lot about boundaries in my overnight awake hours. Not of others, from others, or by others, but for myself, from... myself.

In my openness of letting the Universe tell me what I need to hear, when I need to hear it, I stumbled upon this quote that I had noted many moons ago from Big Magic:

And then this:

Here's the thing, 'what boundaries are you talking about?' you ask. Probably every facet of my life but in this instance, wine, and food, and discipline.

I don't mean never drinking again or not touching a carb for the rest of my life. But trying to understand why I allow the self sabotage of feeling and looking my best, for a moment of that one (or two, or three) extra glass of wine, or the second helping of whatever meal that really my body doesn't need. Setting the boundaries between my physical self and my emotional self is one we all seem to struggle with the most. Trying to tell the difference between the two is difficult at best, and yet one of the most important ones to draw a line in the sand for (with a giant brick wall.)

I thought I needed to figure it all out before I could progress, but Rilke's quote has reminded me that I can also just be. Be content in the questions of the 'why's' in my life, trusting they will reveal their answers in due course. And that, in the meantime, I can also have convictions about who I am and what I want to truly be without believing all the nonsense my mind creates for me, that simply isn't true.

I am worthy of being able to feeling amazing, and SO ARE YOU. So are you. We don't have to suffer, we just need to retrain our brain. And that starts with setting boundaries *up here* (she says pointing a finger at her head) for no one other than yourself, against yourself. A gentle reply to your wandering mind of 'no thanks, I won't be having anymore of that XYZ vice tonight, maybe tomorrow though.' And a simple 'that thought isn't true, and it isn't welcome here anymore; I AM worthy of a beautiful, drama free life, however I want it to be. This is no big deal, unless I try to make it a big deal, and I won't be doing that anymore.'

Love is always loving you, yes, now it's time to always love yourself too. Even in the question.

K x